TAKING A SIP OF COFFEE IN A MUG

Oh my gosh!dnt let me go back on my torturous system..Oh my!! I don’t wanna go back there. I nid to start this..achive personal significance for the day despite of a gloomy day. I’m so thankful that I have a decent sleep last night. And I wanna thank God for that. Right now I feel sooo nervous..oh heck! Enough! I wanna be completely over with the things that kip on bugging me..

No way!!! I feel so incomplete again but no way!! I don’t wanna go back to that.. No way!! Whew!! Why is that everytime I am going to write I should be writing about him..hahahahaha!!! LOL!! I don’t want to suppress..well I guess I just wanna enjoy it.. But I think I nid to keep away from sumthing that will allow me to remember him more.. Oh how I wish those times..my kagagahan times..haha!!musta nmn un? I cant help but laugh at them most specially at myself.. And now, I don’t wanna deny that this nervousness kip on coming back on me when in fact we just chat yesterday..

Oh hell!! This means that sumthing is wrong w me… I don’t know how will I define it. Eerrrrr…or I think its d bagyo..haha..

But allow me to stick on my personal goal.. Its one of the destruction so I nid to eradicate it out of my system.

I don’t know why my mind is soooo tired yesterday.. Maybe because Im sooo tired of thinking…wew!! I can’t even enjoy because I was bothered by my anxiousness about the typhoon.. Somehow, I know d weather is affecting me. I don’t wanna write nor even post this nonsense entry but this is what’s happening to me right now… I feel so sleepy..

But wait! I remember from the book im reading, in every problem, there is an alternatives that you can choose to do you just have to identify the right move for yah..am I making sense now?? Hmmm. A little??? Better….

How about sipping my favorite coffee??? Why not? So il get back in a minute and lets see whats gonna happen next…

Wow!!Just imagining how my coffee tastes excites me..har har har!!wow!!! its really delicoois..now I feel better… wow!!i congratulate myself again for I am applying what Ive learned from the book Im reading..

When I fell bored early in d morning, sipping my fave coffee is d answer..hahaha..but what happen if coffee is not around?nahhh!!lets just think it when it really happens..haha…

Wow!!Sipping coffee is like sipping the joys of life inspite of our daily adversaries… Its sooo gloomy outside but this coffee helps me to get a little better… and the more you enjoy it, the more you appreciate it..my coffee is like that..d more I drink it the more it taste delicious.. everything that is ordinary can really make a difference it you learn to be a little more appreciative.. just like what im doing with my fave coffee..oh wow!! This is my first time to write about it..hahaha!!now this entry is now making sense..lol!!

Oh how I imagine Jesus Christ is with me.. we’re simply chatting.. or just share this simple coffee to enjoy the company of each other… what will I say to Him? He is not talking to me.. But He continuously sip His coffee but His eyes met mine and just smile.. Well I guess I just have to savor this moment being with me without necessarily talking. Is He doing the same thing???? I don’t want Him to go but I got tongue-tied. I just want to see Him… All of Him.. He knows whats inside my heart..

Now I see a child in me. Too hesitant to reach out to His father but her longing to be with Him is intense… I don’t know what to say… Im just sipping my coffee and just look at Him.. He didn’t say anything. He just look at me.. And say, “I am so near. I was just waiting for you to call me.. I’ve been waiting for you to call my name. Where have you been? Im missing you a lot. I am soo near yet you kip on running away from me.”

I don’t know what to say.. I don’t even know if this is just my imagination or there is sumthing that makes me imagine it.

But right now, I feel this inner peace.. I am not troubled nor bothered for I know that He’s with me…