Wednesday, July 10, 2013
Posted by eyerock4Savior at 3:29 AM
Friday, March 29, 2013
What will you do if your crush will tell you he had the same feelings for you? Or what will you do if a man you used to admire 10 years ago will tell that he's still in-love with you?
As for me, puppy love is puppy love. Period. It's just pure infatuation that will just fade away sooner or later.
I was just a young normal teenager 10 years ago who happened to admire my cousin's barkada, which is a very typical story. I instantly like him the first time he was introduced to me by my cousin. He's cute and tall. Weeeeeee it sends shivers down my spine when I looked at him. I was mesmerized but I know I need to stay calm and composed or otherwise, I will be darn obvious. I know that he is kind and tender, hmmmmm, a boy next door type of guy whom you want to be with every single day. He looks like he could charm any woman he likes in a subtle way. Oh how I always fantasize that he would court me but I just shoved the idea. Am too young to think of having a romantic relationship during that time. Besides, it created me a devastating effect when he crack a joke over me saying I need to drink my milk.oooh grrrrrrrr!!!!!!
Yeah, I know I'm still young but I don't need him to stress out that I was too young for him. And I came to believe that I will never be the type of girl that he would wish to court (sigh!). When he said I need to drink my milk it looses my self-confidence, and worse, he made me feel that I can never be anyone than her younger sister...grrrrr......
We exchange communications in a form of a snail mail letter. But after two years, it stopped until I saw with my own two eyes the a girl with him. They're sweet with each other which slowly tear up my teenage heart in bits of pieces. The girl was cute and they look good on each other. Ouch!
I really don't have a choice but to move on anyway. I gradually learn to forget him and eventually found someone to love.The new found love was my college boyfriend. Unfortunately, the six years of unfaltering love untimely ended. We grew cold with each other and decided to move on. During that time, the bad news came from my cousin that the guy I used to admire few years ago was married. I just nodded and pretended not to be affected. I thought it doesn't matter but at the back of my mind, I can't believe myself telling I need to move on. What the heck!!!
So I know we have separate lives. I got myself a new boyfriend again after moving on with my six years relationship. Unfortunately, I got no luck this time again. I was completely devastated with our breakup.
And there he came again, the man I fell in love with 10 years ago. I was 17 years old, a teenager who desire him to be my boyfriend but it never happened. We keep in touch once again in Facebook and later, he's calling me everyday. He told me that his wife died a couple of months ago and from that on, our communications became open. It was after 10 years when I hear it straight from him that he loved me before .He was just afraid to lose our friendship that's why he never attempted to tell his feelings for me.
At first, I know we are treating each other as friends since both of us came from grieving. I know he needs someone to talk to so I offered my presence to him. He's the one I can confide with my problems before. I tried to ignore the feeling that i have for him, thinking that i will never fall in love with him. I never expected that the same teenager who fell in love with him 10 years will be the same person who will fall in love with him over and over again no matter how years it will take.
I tried to ignore my old feelings that's starting to grow. Am learning to fall in love with him and I can't deny this. I just realize there's no need for me to hide the feeling I have for him. I still love him. We're more than two years now & I didn't regret a single day that I decided to show this undying love for him. He's mine now, and I will never let him go. 10 years is more than enough! Rarh!
Posted by eyerock4Savior at 7:59 PM
Sunday, April 8, 2012
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Tuesday, October 5, 2010
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Thursday, September 24, 2009
I fell into Satan's trap just before I went to practice for a worship concert. I came to our practice with a very burden in my heart. I don't deserve Him. Remorse slowly hit me and I am so tired for being like this. I asked forgiveness but this guilt feeling won't go. I need His grace. I can't do this. I can't stand in His presence.
I sang three praises but felt that wasn't enough. Some of us were already committing mistakes when we already perfected it a couple of days ago. Am also tired and I know most of us have a lot of concerns to attend. But for the very last time, I want to give Him the best of my best and all the things that I haven't poured out before. I asked Him last night. Lord, please make me pleasing unto You, please make me do my very best unto You.
During the last practice, it seems amo not doing my best yet. But I did in my own strength. I seek Him and wait for Him earnestly. I am desperate that night to give Him the best and the highest praises and worship that I ever have to offer. I felt that God is looking down upon us. He is seeking and searching for His worshippers. God knows our hearts. We want to pour our hearts unto Him. God saw it. And He didn't failed us. On our last song All of My Days, we worship not only through our mouth but through our hearts. He didn't want us to stop..my knees became weak and I fell into the floor..i felt to weak of His presence but all I want at that moment is to obey Him, please Him, and be consumed with His Holy Spirit.
The music is unstoppable and Sally is exhorting non-stop. And she fell in the floor. I grab again the phone and shout His praise non-stop. I went ballistic. My flesh is crying out of praise for Him. My being was so consumed of His grace, of His love, of His presence. I want to consume all of Him. We want to give Him praise and worship until our last energy because He deserves the best.The people in church vow down unto Him.. We felt His presence and we hear angels and trumpets. We're on the mountain but He is just near us among the the thousands of unseen worshipers and saints.
We know it's just an appetizer. God will do more on concert. And it was an unforgettable experience for the group.
Posted by eyerock4Savior at 5:56 PM
Monday, September 7, 2009
It's September now!!Few weeks from now we will celebrating the glory of God through a worship concert on September 27, 2009 at Albay Astrodome..weeeee.... we felt humbled and we felt so privileged to be a part of this big worship team. We are composed of different churches united together to worship God in a big concert...
We started the practice last month and we are now moving on to the polishings... The music team of Jesus Our Discipler church was honored to be a part of this big celebration in the kingdom of God...We had a good fellowship from different churches. They are humble and more dedicated to serve the Lord. We know deep in our hearts that we are united together in the name of the Lord to glorify Him, not to compete but to complete. We are here to empower and strengthen one another, not to showcase and boast off our skills and talents.
Posted by eyerock4Savior at 9:49 PM
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
We did have fun and we maximize everything we got here: foods, foods, foods, lots of foods pa hehehee!!!its like a feast! videoke...i sang once... the great view, the sea, games, bonding moments, recreation..... and guess what we really enjoyed!!!
do you need proofs???
here we go!!!
Posted by eyerock4Savior at 1:34 AM