LAST DAY OF WORK AS A CUSTOMER SERVICE REP, I
HAVE MY LIFE BACK
I
just filed my immediate resignation last June 26, 2013. I keep on praying to God that
things will be smooth & easy as I submit the letter of resignation on that
day. I am thinking all the possible reasons to convince them that I need to
rest immediately. As much as I wanted to render one month, I don’t have the
energy and motivation to do this.
Ate
Helen approached me and said I look terrible. My energy sapped and I lose
weight. The status of my health was too
obvious in my appearance that I am unfit to work for the moment.
After
enduring all interrogations from my supervisor, she finally accepted the letter
and submitted it. I don’t want to sound unkind on this journal but I know she
mean what she said “Oh, why are you here?” in a sarcastic way. I just ignored
it & I was too focused on how am I gonna tell her “I want to resign now!”
in a proper way. I just waited for a couple of minutes after she submitted it
and she told me everything was accomplished. Wheew! I am soooooo happy it was
all done!
I
bid goodbye to my colleagues most especially to my teammates. I can’t believe
the day I am finally waiting has come. To resign at work. Sad to say, I need to
compromise my health just to make this possible. For more than a month, I had
an on and off fever that I need to give up my part time job just to avoid
further damage on the company. For a while, my sickness became my temporary
escape from fulfilling my responsibilities as customer service representative.
I need to rest because that’s the important thing to do. I lose appetite and I
don’t have the energy. It feels that rest was sooooo expensive to afford.
My job
affects me a lot and my health was compromised big time. I’ve had enough of shouts and foul languages
I am hearing from my customers over and over again. It’s really stressing and
emotionally draining on my part. I don’t want to come back anymore but I don’t
have a choice anyway. My mind still wants me to report at work but my body has
surrendered and I know I need to listen to it.
So I made a
decision to file an immediate resignation no matter what happens. As a rule in
the company, I need to render at least one month or unless I have a medical
certificate to make it possible. I prayed to God and never expected it will be
easier than I’d expected. It was just less than 5 minutes approved after
submitting it.
At first, I
was a little bit sad that I don’t have a work anymore. But this is what I chose
a couple of months ago and now it happened. It took me a while before the
thought of that terrible job is finally gone and I don’t need to bother it
every single day of my life. I am so happy and I felt a little better now. My
body is starting to rejuvenate new strength and all my sickness suddenly gone.
Well, there’s still cough but I feel better. It feels I had my life back now.
After my
resignation, my health is slowly restoring. I am sooooooooooooooooooo happy! I
am soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo free! I had a good sleep last night and all
stressful thoughts and feeling was gone. I know the cause of this sickness was
more psychological. I was just simply burned out from my job and I really need
to give it up before it’s too late. Besides, I am about to be terminated due to
my absences so I’d rather file it earlier than kick me out and create a bad
record in my work experience. So I’d rather leave as soon as possible though it
will really affect my finances.
Whatever
happens, I am confident that God will provide everything I need. Meanwhile, I
am resting to restore my health. I didn’t do anything except watching movies
and writing this journal.