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Friday, February 22, 2008

fasting continues

well nothing much to say.. for the sake of putting an entry here.. its more than two since i started it..the first few days was soooo hard and difficult. i even experience dizziness, hungry and i felt week. but after few more days, not eating rice at night are no longer difficult.. im gradually losing weight.. but something is lacking..my relationship with God is not really progressing.. i need to work on it... my fasting is useless if I didn't renew my relationship with the Creator.. but everything I do, I dedicate it to him...i sometimes give myself chance to eat with what i really want..but more on less i can now discipline myself little by little..baby steps..slowly but surely..i need focus on Him, just like i am focusing on my weak points as a writer..thats what fasting is all about..

Thursday, February 7, 2008

40 DAYS OF PRAYER AND FASTING

So much has happened to me lately.. But the last thing that brings more significance to me is the fast approach of Lenten Season. When we go to church that was the homily was all about. Its time for fasting again.. I don’t normally do it except that I don’t eat meat during Friday and during the holy week.. Lenten season is very normal for me.. Nothing much happen spiritually.. Yeah I prayed but it was an obligation for me.

This time I am taking fasting seriously for spiritual purposes and to grow closer to God. I started it last Monday and this would be my fifth day.. I am fasting for rice, I only eat once a day. For people who may find that easy, you don’t normally call it fasting. Eating rice for me is a big deal because I can’t live without it. Even I am loaded with other foods my appetite to eat will not yet slow down until I eat rice. That is why I don’t normally take snacks, I can survive without it.. But without rice??? Naaaaaahhhhh!!!!! I can’t live without it.. I can survive without eating other foods but not rice for crying out loud!! This is very true when I say it!

But for God I will do this. Yesterday I felt to dizzy and felt sooo weak.. I take snacks but for the past few days I cut back my rice intake. Oh I remember! I even fast for coffee. I have a tumbler big enough to be a pitcher. My coffee intake goes more than one liter a day! (I hope I was exaggerating but I’m not!). Then I go for oatmeal during dinner time and that was very very difficult for me.. I still try to obey my hunger but I avoid trying to eat rice. During night time I felt hungry because I know oatmeal would not be enough for me…Not just that! My stomachs really aching.. Ouch!! But have to endure it!

I am still on the crucial adjustment period. But with God I know its gonna be worth it.. I don’t know.. I am true when I say that I am taking my relationship with God more seriously than before. That is why I take courage to do the fasting most specially on rice and coffee.. These are the two things I can’t live without..

Fasting can be done in so many ways. But first, begin it with the desire to grow closer to God and He will help you overcome the desires of your flesh. I am not in the authority to say this, only my experience can attest to that. Always ask assistance and guidance to Him. You know that everything is possible with Him.. And now, I am continuously praying for the courage to continue what I’ve started. For now I cannot tell the results but I know that God recognizes it.