When Puppy Love Becomes Real Love

What will you do if your crush will tell you he had the same feelings for you? Or what will you do if a man you used to admire 10 years ago will tell that he's still in-love with you?

As for me, puppy love is puppy love. Period. It's just pure infatuation that will just fade away sooner or later.

I was just a young normal teenager 10 years ago who happened to admire my cousin's barkada, which is a very typical story. I instantly like him the first time he was introduced to me by my cousin. He's cute and tall. Weeeeeee it sends shivers down my spine when I looked at him. I was mesmerized but I know I need to stay calm and composed or otherwise, I will be darn obvious. I know that he is kind and tender, hmmmmm, a boy next door type of guy whom you want to be with every single day. He looks like he could charm any woman he likes in a subtle way. Oh how I always fantasize that he would court me but I just shoved the idea. Am too young to think of having a romantic relationship during that time. Besides, it created me a devastating effect when he crack a joke over me saying I need to drink my milk.oooh grrrrrrrr!!!!!!

Yeah, I know I'm still young but I don't need him to stress out that I was too young for him. And I came to believe that I will never be the type of girl that he would wish to court (sigh!). When he said I need to drink my milk it looses my self-confidence, and worse, he made me feel that I can never be anyone than her younger sister...grrrrr......

We exchange communications in a form of a snail mail letter. But after two years, it stopped until I saw with my own two eyes the a girl with him. They're sweet with each other which slowly tear up my teenage heart in bits of pieces. The girl was cute and they look good on each other. Ouch!

I really don't have a choice but to move on anyway. I gradually learn to forget him and eventually found someone to love.The new found love was my college boyfriend. Unfortunately, the six years of unfaltering love untimely ended. We grew cold with each other and decided to move on. During that time, the bad news came from my cousin that the guy I used to admire few years ago was married. I just nodded and pretended not to be affected. I thought it doesn't matter but at the back of my mind, I can't believe myself telling I need to move on. What the heck!!!

So I know we have separate lives. I got myself a new boyfriend again after moving on with my six years relationship. Unfortunately, I got no luck this time again. I was completely devastated with our breakup.


And there he came again, the man I fell in love with 10 years ago. I was 17 years old, a teenager who desire him to be my boyfriend but it never happened. We keep in touch once again in Facebook and later, he's calling me everyday. He told me that his wife died a couple of months ago and from that on, our communications became open. It was after 10 years when I hear it straight from him that he loved me before .He was just afraid to lose our friendship that's why he never attempted to tell his feelings for me.

At first, I know we are treating each other as friends since both of us came from grieving. I know he needs someone to talk to so I offered my presence to him. He's the one I can confide with my problems before. I tried to ignore the feeling that i have for him, thinking that i will never fall in love with him. I never expected that the same teenager who fell in love with him 10 years will be the same person who will fall in love with him over and over again no matter how years it will take.

I tried to ignore my old feelings that's starting to grow. Am learning to fall in love with him and I can't deny this. I just realize there's no need for me to hide the feeling I have for him. I still love him. We're more than two years now & I didn't regret a single day that I decided to show this undying love for him. He's mine now, and I will never let him go. 10 years is more than enough! Rarh!