conversation of a child and a Father

This is my prayer for You my Father, Jesus, Oh Lord

Oh how I need You Lord

You are my Only HOPE

You’re my ONLY PLAN

So I will wait for You

To come and rescue me

Come and Give me Light

Where Am I goin Lord God, if I wake up this morning and You’re not by my side? The personal Father whom I know but knew me very well before I was conceived on my mother’s womb and exists here on earth

So I sing :

And I worship You Father of Light

Spirit of Truth

And I worship You

Jesus we call on You

You’re more than enough for me.. How happy I am to know that You’re everything to me but can give more than I need… The happiness that I felt can’t contain inside my heart..Please make my heart big..Expand it.. So I may know how to share it..to SHARE YOU to many people… I still keep on sinning, but You taught me to ask forgiveness.. You taught my that Your forgiveness is inexhaustible and unlimited… You’re not like us who get tire to pardon someone who keeps on hurting us over and over again… You taught me to be patient on myself with others just how You are patient with me..You taught me that every time I stumble, I must learn to stand up again, don’t look back, and keep goin, goin, goin,…life’s like that.. it isn’t easy as what I think

but as you go along with your journey, you will realize the value of life that I designed only for you… Come with me, and you will not regret a single day of your risks and sacrifices.. I teach you not only to overcome your temptations but I am also teaching you to have faith on Me. I will never let you go..I’m not asking you to be perfect overnight.. Just trust on Me my dear child..I am holding You in my arms now, there’s nothing more to fear… Enjoy the life that I gave you..there’s more to expect, there’s more to ask..All you need to do is to TRUST ME for I am always with you..

Your wonderful loving personal Father,

Jesus

You always make me cry my Father..I can’t say anything.. Thank YOU? Yeah Thank You but there’s more my heart can’t express… Thank You so muchhhh….. I love You Lord… Thank you so much… This is my prayer, in your Holy Son Jesus name, AMEN.

Purpose of everything----

For those who believe in purpose, even the most nonsense and most absurd events are also the source of something good.. out of boredom and laziness and losing my intellectual stimulation to create good thoughts, i was able to create a prayer.. yeah.. my prayer didn't automatically produce quick solution but nevertheless, i think this prayer helps me a lot to finish my work amidst all consequences..jeeeeezzzz i have to!!!!

here is my prayer..it simply reveals that in everything you do, God is the only Way for whatever problems you are facing though He will not respond the way how this trouble be solved.

I can’t write Lord god. It is only You whom I think today. I don’t want to waste my time for unpleasant and unworthy thoughts. You have blessed me soooooooooo much.. I wanted to give it back to You.. I don’t know how I feel except of anxiousness.. Lord God I ask You to remove my unworthy thoughts. For I know it will later dictate my destiny. Lord God help me to focus on Your work. Yeah, with the help of technology I was able to spread Your love in different ways.. Help me Lord God to battle all this fear to serve You..Help me to focus on You alone and not on the works of evil. I let this be my prayer for this moment. I can’t produce a good article for my work. You told me to face and overcome my fear. I will overcome the fear of going to hell because I am Yours. Teach me Lord God to believe in myself as I firmly believe in You.. Teach me to fight.. Teach me to bring myself on truth for I trust no one but You alone… Father forgive me for I cannot help but cry for Your mercy.. Forgive me for being sooo weak to fight… Just give me strength Lord God.. I know You’re always there.. Let me remind Myself that You’re the provider of everything.. I doubt myself but help me overcome this.. This is my prayer in the Holy Name of Your Mighty Son Jesus, AMEN…

The fact that I was still able to post this entry is because I am done with mah work..jeezzz..thanks and i praise and glorify God for that...see? everything happens for a purpose..

OVERCOMING FEAR

This is my theme of the month. Overcoming the things i feared. This is because it is like a self-imposed prison that limits your freedom from exhausting your life to the fullest. I am busy finishing my friggin backlogs but this is my way to release my stress. The past months we're not quite good for me. I have suffered crisis and numerous persecutions. But God is good! I know He never abandoned me. I know when I suffered, He knew everything how i felt. But now, God wants me to face my FEAR... This is the right time to do it. That's the significance of the book Destination Success i bought because of depression. The author talks about overcoming and facing fear.

"Overcoming your fear is the beginning of WISDOM"

This is the very first quote i remembered when he discussed about fear. The past few years I keep on running from them. But I realize how wrong I am. To overcome your fear, you must into them, not run away from them. You might say this is easier said than done. But with persistence and determination to overcome your shadow, you can. I experience a lot of struggles. I'm still on the process of overcoming my fear and this is not done overnight. It will need serious hard work. And if you cling to God, He will anchor you on your journey. I still stumble, but nevertheless I persevere.
Just like what David did to Goliath. He ran toward the fierce giant instead of running away from it. I guess all of us has Goliath in our hearts. What are they? If you know you fear something but don't know what it is, you're in deep trouble.

For me, overcoming fear is not the beginning of wisdom, but freedom..

the UnBEARABLE TRUTHS ABOUT HELL

I spent almost two days of terror after I watched the documentary film entitled Hell is Real.. This is a three disc documentary film that revealed the thing "HELL" is really existing.. I only watched the last part for more than an hour.. I anticipated that watching this will not be easy for me.. I felt the burden of the pastor to share it with others..this is not going to be easy.. So am I. But i felt the big responsibility to share it with so many people.. And it is not easy for me to write it hir.. but it needs to be now...I will only share to you what I have learned and found out..
I really believe there is really hell, but the revealing truths were almost unimaginable for me..I never thought this kind of place really exists.. HELL is the place where souls are tortured..for eternity...you can imagine all the kinds of sufferings here on earth..now, multiply it by so many times, you can even use the 7 digit numbers, multiply it on its square root.. and that was HELL..

LAKES and WELLS of FIRE... 12 feet long WORM that NEVER DIES..these are the things that you can found in hell, endlessly torturing you in the most unimaginable and painful way..

now who are these people? don't even think that God wanted this to happen. He wanted all of us to be saved that's why He sent Jesus for us. Those people who don't simply ignore God.. Those people who have called million times but didn't even bothered to respond.. and they keep on saying, "I will serve you God, but not today..I will devote my time for you TOMORROW". What if this tomorrow never comes? No matter what we do, when we die, that was all useless..Who else? Those who never bothered to repent on their sins..Those who are happy and take mindless pleasures of committing sins over and over again.. Those who only live to satisfy themselves... Those who only devote their time in money making and never wanted to share it the less fortunate..

While you are still alive, there is hope.. This means that God is still giving us a chance to go back to Him, serve Him, and offer our life to Him... If we trust God, we don't need to be afraid.. This revelation is a clear message from God that He loves us so much and He wanted us to know the truth..
The message of Salvation through Jesus Christ is the truth.. Christ did his majo part. All we need to do is accept the fact the Jesus Christ is our Saviour and Redeemer. No one is destined to go to hell. If we are, then it's our choice!
Jesus loves us more than we ever imagined and ever needed. That is why He already paid the price for us. Faith in the name of Jesus Christ is the only way to salvation..If you still don't believe Him, the fact that you are still alive is a clear message that He is reaching out for you..

im sooo pissed off i found myself buying a good book!

so many things have happened to me that past few days. so many tangled emotions that i tried to vanquish with so many alternatives that might later make me well... watching movie, writing a journal, listening to some blood pumping and hell-raising music, dancing, eating, and now, buying a good book..i don't know im sooo depressed and im such a real mess big time! well this book, the title was Destination Success by Dwight Bain.. This is one of my fave books way back in college..this is the only change i get to buy this book..out of depression.. i know there's something in it.. i can't produce good quality articles because I am soo distracted and disturbed... my life is at stake a couple of days ago.. i hope i will be safe now that i moved to another boarding house... i still have a friggin jetlag since i saw that thief sneaking on our room... good for me if i didn't have a clear image of that guy.. hmm, he's ugly...that enough to steal away my sweet sleep (goodness gracious!)..so before i found out myself cut into pieces, its better to move another safe place to find a home.. is this a part of adjustment? i've been living on my former boarding house for almost two years.. this was my first time to move out.. damn that monster bastard! well life's like that..
i was hoping that things will be better this week. i hope i can improve my work..and i hope that this book can help me..of course i gotta read this first. maybe this weekend...

self-sabotage ..is the worst part of me.. bad things can be good things... that's according to the book i just bought few minutes ago.. makes sense... but i need to go back to work now...

fasting continues

well nothing much to say.. for the sake of putting an entry here.. its more than two since i started it..the first few days was soooo hard and difficult. i even experience dizziness, hungry and i felt week. but after few more days, not eating rice at night are no longer difficult.. im gradually losing weight.. but something is lacking..my relationship with God is not really progressing.. i need to work on it... my fasting is useless if I didn't renew my relationship with the Creator.. but everything I do, I dedicate it to him...i sometimes give myself chance to eat with what i really want..but more on less i can now discipline myself little by little..baby steps..slowly but surely..i need focus on Him, just like i am focusing on my weak points as a writer..thats what fasting is all about..

40 DAYS OF PRAYER AND FASTING

So much has happened to me lately.. But the last thing that brings more significance to me is the fast approach of Lenten Season. When we go to church that was the homily was all about. Its time for fasting again.. I don’t normally do it except that I don’t eat meat during Friday and during the holy week.. Lenten season is very normal for me.. Nothing much happen spiritually.. Yeah I prayed but it was an obligation for me.

This time I am taking fasting seriously for spiritual purposes and to grow closer to God. I started it last Monday and this would be my fifth day.. I am fasting for rice, I only eat once a day. For people who may find that easy, you don’t normally call it fasting. Eating rice for me is a big deal because I can’t live without it. Even I am loaded with other foods my appetite to eat will not yet slow down until I eat rice. That is why I don’t normally take snacks, I can survive without it.. But without rice??? Naaaaaahhhhh!!!!! I can’t live without it.. I can survive without eating other foods but not rice for crying out loud!! This is very true when I say it!

But for God I will do this. Yesterday I felt to dizzy and felt sooo weak.. I take snacks but for the past few days I cut back my rice intake. Oh I remember! I even fast for coffee. I have a tumbler big enough to be a pitcher. My coffee intake goes more than one liter a day! (I hope I was exaggerating but I’m not!). Then I go for oatmeal during dinner time and that was very very difficult for me.. I still try to obey my hunger but I avoid trying to eat rice. During night time I felt hungry because I know oatmeal would not be enough for me…Not just that! My stomachs really aching.. Ouch!! But have to endure it!

I am still on the crucial adjustment period. But with God I know its gonna be worth it.. I don’t know.. I am true when I say that I am taking my relationship with God more seriously than before. That is why I take courage to do the fasting most specially on rice and coffee.. These are the two things I can’t live without..

Fasting can be done in so many ways. But first, begin it with the desire to grow closer to God and He will help you overcome the desires of your flesh. I am not in the authority to say this, only my experience can attest to that. Always ask assistance and guidance to Him. You know that everything is possible with Him.. And now, I am continuously praying for the courage to continue what I’ve started. For now I cannot tell the results but I know that God recognizes it.