its really you my darlin'!!

when you're gone

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
is made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

I haven't felt this way before
Everything that I do
reminds me of you
And the clothes you left
are lyin' on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

We were meant for each other
I keep forever
Oh oh oh oh oh

All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me
Yeah

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

They say that music is the language of the soul.. how true and i believe it.. how ironic but now im missin you.. my real love.. the one who really loves and the one i hurt so deeply.. i dont know.. its him that i really need.. the same feeling that i have a couple of years ago..wow!! i really felt this damn feeling once gain.. im not hurting right now.. but i really miss him.. i know that i have to do this because i really dont want to loose him for good.. im really hurting and im still damn trying hard of killing this feeling on this stranger...

i now realize again he's really branded me as his, and vice versa.. i dreamed of making love with him..passionate..wild..uninhibited..only for this man.. i may have felt such bloody thirst for sexual lust on any hot-blooded man..but i know it will simply fade away.. even if im fulfilled physcially it will simply leave me in a void of huge emptiness.. because there is one man now hum i want to give my everything...

oh how i missin you darlin..i guess that's the main reason why i became infatuated with this stranger..well this brendan is really damn irressistable.. but my mind my heart and my soul recognizes only one soul...its yours.. the one who will make me complete and fulfilled..

maybe brendan is darn qualified for a one night stand.. but what now? i think after that i will never look for him.. i don't know..

but right now...
im just glad that im missing you..i guess no matter what i do i can never eradicate you out of my system.. i love you.. i truly love you..with all my heart and soul..
im just so sad i badly hurt you right now.. its killing me..
but right now this si teh most appropriate thing that i nid to do..

forgive me my love for hurting you so bad..
i just need to do it for you..
i cannot afford to loose you..
that will be the hardest thing that i ever have to face in my life, even thinking of it makes me want to be numb a thousand times...

i miss you and im soo hurting to realize thta you're more hurting than me, knowing that you more love me more than i love you..
i just hope wen the time i was over with this feelings fro brendan you're still der..
coz i love you so damn much..
i never thought that i could ever love a man this much..like i do love you..

forgive me..
i have to do this..
hope you're still there waiting for me..